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Dun know how to start this blog actually..

huhu!
anyway,start already.

whahahahaha,

now listening one of my favorite songs of this sem..

身騎白馬抒情版-徐佳瑩

this sem is really ‘interesting’
it was my first time dying my hair,
some good comments,
some bad comments

but whatever it is,

just something i want to try out in my life.
honestly,
this sem…some friends i m getting closer and some i just feel like the distance is getting bigger n bigger.
may be is because already 4 semesters in UTP..
i should have known who are nice to get along with, and who ain’t!

this is also the first time i joined ISC event, which is International Celebration Night!
At first it was weird,
because every international student is like so close to one another (although they are from different country)
I felt like I m the only foreigner at that time,hehe..
luckily got some really friendly new friends,
and also Mr Amer and Ms Salma.

<<Amer & Salma>>

and not to forget, my HOD Mr Marwan, which is really funny!
<<Me & Marwan>>

我愛誰  跨不過  從來也不覺得錯
自以為  抓著痛  總能修成愛的果
偏執相信著  受詛咒的水晶球
阻擋可能心動的理由

而你卻  靠近了  逼我們視線交錯
原地不動  或向前走  突然在意這分鐘
眼前荒沙瀰漫了等候
耳邊傳來孱弱的呼救
追趕要我愛的不保留

我身騎白馬  走三關
我改換素衣  過中原
放下西涼沒人管
我一心只想王寶釧

Amer should be on the flight now i supposed.
Hav a safe journey back home yah.
Before he departed, he sms me : How was the dinner?
He is the only one friend in UTP who i think really understand what i feel sometimes..
We do have something in common.
and he makes me laugh most of the time
although he is not cute! ha!

Next part of my life in UTP will be about my course mates…
continue tomorrow (if i remember to)

Dun know how to start this blog actually..

huhu!
anyway,start already.

whahahahaha,

now listening one of my favorite songs of this sem..

身騎白馬抒情版-徐佳瑩

this sem is really ‘interesting’
it was my first time dying my hair,
some good comments,
some bad comments

but whatever it is,

just something i want to try out in my life.
honestly,
this sem…some friends i m getting closer and some i just feel like the distance is getting bigger n bigger.
may be is because already 4 semesters in UTP..
i should have known who are nice to get along with, and who ain’t!
this is also the first time i joined ISC event, which is International Celebration Night!
At first it was weird,
because every international student is like so close to one another (although they are from different country)
I felt like I m the only foreigner at that time,hehe..
luckily got some really friendly new friends,
and also Mr Amer and Ms Salma.
and not to forget, my HOD Mr Marwan, which is really funny!

9th March 2008…
走过的路        蔡健雅

曾拥有过的这一切
都可能在一瞬间全都消失
曾最让我感动的事
都可能经过时间而被遗忘
也许我过得不够认真
..
..
..

直到现在 走过的路
有些心酸辛苦 但至少有些小幸福
爱过恨过 走过的路 很多感触
或许在一个人散步时心中还会回顾
只希望自己能走出片天空
勇敢的走到未来…

For those who cannot read mandarin…
i bet u guys are wondering what the hell are the things on the top there…
it is a song…
meaning like the road that already gone through…

i picked up some lines that i agree …
* Whatever things that i own..they might just disappear in a second

next line is something i don’t agree…
* Whatever things that touched me might just be forgotten as time goes by….
(Because the things that hav been captured inside my memories…
is very hard for to erase them!)

here is the chorus part,
i bet everyone also feels the same way..
* We have came so far until who we are now
There are sadness and pain
Yet there are sweet happiness sometimes…
Looking back all the ways that have been gone through,
Everyone feels something about it
and
the only hope is we can step out from the place we are now
and walk towards our future…

One year passed already.
He left us for one year…
and suddenly i realized i haven’t changed my msn display name for one year!
Lots of things have changed…
and lots of things never changed…
Even i myself, i know i hav changed a lot
but sometimes i prefer to ignore that statement.
i tell myself..
i m still the same BONG .
the fact is,
yea..my hair color changed.
my style changed.
my personality also changed, without i myself knowing it.

9th March 2007

the next time i was going to have my IBIS test…
and at 10.20+ am,
i was sort of relaxing at my room and here the sms came
i was shocked! i truly was..
the native boy believed that everything in life would be perfect cause this native boy never really lost something in his life.
JPA didn’t get, nevermind I still have petronas. I m not losing something.
My ex gf broke up with me, nevermind I can get a new one…
But at that time,
it was the first time
first time…
i felt like something had been taken out from my life
i lost him forever…
luckily,
i recovered quite fast, even though it still did affect my IBIS test ^.^
i know
i lost him in person
but,
he is still in my memory
i m not going to erase him from my memory
so..
i never lost him!

9th March 2008
here i am again..
sometimes feel really down thinking of the past things..
but nevermind!
i still have tones of things that make me feel happy!
and deep inside my heart,
i know he also hopes that all of his friends can live happily..
since we have the chances to do so…

Extra Information:
* I am actually listening to the song  <<走过的路>> while writing this blog…
  most of the time i am like that…
  I like to listen to the song i feel connected to my blog that i am writing..
  Hehe…
  By the way,this song is nice…kind like encouraging type. If u stay in UTP V5,can
  ask me to send to u..If u ain’t, just download by yourself then! Ha ha..

First nite of 2008 in UTP
First nite in v5D…
First nite of my first year second sem…
i couldn’t sleep….
listen to a new song that i like a lot
telling me something
telling others something
let go….
just let go….
多想要找到一丝挣扎在你脸上
可是你美得冷得淡得像月亮
等着你的那辆车 灯闪一下
像催你草草断了我们的过往
约好要每年回到初拥吻的地方
划一个记号写下相恋的感想
等明年我剩一个人 坐在堤防
改唱首什么歌来纪念爱的傻

让你逃亡 又让你回航
让你依赖 我也让你倔强
只要你微笑 带一点感动的泪光
我就得到可以再给的力量

我让你飞翔 又让你说谎
我让你苛求 我也让你奢望
我还以为爱 就是要体贴的退让
我们一起盖的罗马 你却跟他拆了城墙
踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂

loving someone…
sometimes need to let the person go…
or let the person to do whatever he or she likes to do….
when u see the person happy…
u will understand
at that moment…
what love means to you.

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英

是记忆里有味道的风景

午睡操场传来蝉的声音

多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信

因为我们等不到那流星

认真投决定命运的硬币

却不知道到底能去哪里

After high school….
we both pursued different thing,
but to be frank
u are the one of them who i still keep in touch with
and most of the time
i was the one who took the move…
just because u are special to me
just because u are nice to me
therefore
everything i did
just for u

一起长大的约定

那样清晰打过勾的我相信

说好要一起旅行

是你如今唯一坚持的任性

this song
is my ring tone for my handphone.
i like it lyrics very much…
just because it sounds like what i have experienced all the way in my life.
i miss the day when we were together
every time when u called
i really hope that i can sit in front of u
and we just talk in person
rather than just talking in phone..
but i do understand
the reality.
The reality is cruel..
is something i have to face…
but what made me hold myself back
is because
u are just someone that is so nice…
i feel so warm
when i have u beside me,
when i have u talk to me,
when i have u listen to me;

一起长大的约定

the promise growing up together
那样真心

is so sincere
与你聊不完的曾经

we chatted about our past which can be never ended
而我已经分不清

and now that made me confused

你是友情还是错过的爱情
you are my friendship or just the love that i had just missed.

today…
i hav made a super super big transformation i had never done before
…
my hair
is red now…
originally,it should be ‘light blonde’
but the guy who ’styled’ my hair
said…
since my hair is black color…
the final result won’t be that light
it will be just a brown-ish color…
so…
i decided to follow his suggestion…
i didn’t change the hair style i hav planned to change
since i m going to change my hair color already…
so…
with the same hair cut…
and
the chemical thing all put on my head…
‘dying’ my original black hair….
5 minutes…
10 minutes…
30 minutes…
50 minutes have passed….
it was time to ‘reveal’ my new look!
when i saw my look for the first time
i was completely in shock!
it didn’t turn out as what i expected it to be…
light blonde….
why became…
red-ish
brown-ish…
i dun even know how to describe it…
oh yah!
my hair is not purely black!
thats why it turned out as this color!
damn!
what can i do now?
redye black color?
no way!!!
90+ bucks and want me to spend more to get back the old look
arghhhh!!!
whatever then…

4.30pm…
weird!
why the post office is open today?
i helped my mum to pay some bills at post office
and
i met my tuition teacher
who is not really the kind like very close type
since i just tuition there for less than 9 months
anyway,
a polite boy like me still said ‘hi’ to her
and she seemed like shocked…
and so afraid of me….
what de!
=.=
she thought that i am a bad guy who might just did something bad on her,
i supposed…
hey…red hair doesn’t mean anything ‘lar’ pls…..
(Malaysians’ stereotyping)
luckily at last she still chatted with me a bit…
that made me feel so much better!
and now..
i dun even know how to face people in utp when i m bek there….
*

die ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just read through a stranger’s blog…
do i feel happy being me?
this question…
makes me think of
"am i being myself？ ”
From the time when i know how to think…
how to analyze…
i hav been asking myself this question.
and i myself
dont even know the answer
by the way
that person’s blog..
really make me feel that
why am i still wasting my time not being myself?
i have only one life,
and there is no second chance given to be regret if anything bad happened to me!
=.= (~sorry to say that,mumy..)
everyone is born as who he is…
or who she is…
how he is
and how she is….
looking at myself…
sometimes,
i will ask…
why am i the only one who have to face this..
and that…
whatever
sometimes,
i am glad that i know how to answer myself
hey…there are lots of people even worse than u…
or
hey…there must be some reasons why god decided to give u all these…

Another common question
will i choose to be another person if i had the chance?
NO will be my answer…
everyone is unique in the way everyone is..
i have my own path that i had experience
which made the person i am today
and the path that i will experience
which caused of the person i am today!

Last night in KL
7-1-2008
i was alone
after saying goodbye to
Xiang Qing,
Xiao Min and Eddy,
then
Mei Fang,
Yoon Yeh…
and last one
Ah Peow.
i decided to do something i wanted to do for a long time
–walking alone in KL
after buying ticket at Puduraya
i had around 3 hours before my bus depart..
so i just walked around …>>>
~Petaling Street
thats was funny!
some asked me whether i wanna buy "blue" film or not…
but not many,
really
may be i seem to look like those who never interested in that kind of thing
i like the environment there
though it seems to be ’slightly’ a bit cheap
ha ha!
but it just simply has that Chinese Feel
especially around the Chinese food stall part
table with red/pink table cloth…
mostly seated by Caucasians…
walked and walked
and then i was
at middle of the roads…
with sign boards…
realizing that KL tower is just less than 2 KM from where i were
i decided to go there
wanna see night view of KL from KL tower.
walking for around 40 minutes
arrived there
and i was told by the girl
at tourist information counter that
the tower is closed at 9.30pm
damn!just missed it!
but at least i still had the chance to see the night view at KL tower
not from its top
just at its foot…
which is quite breathtaking to me
not 100% because of the view,
but is caused of my own effort walking for such a long distance..
it was tiring,
yet fun!
On my way back to Puduraya
i passed by a petrol station..
HMHM…
pay attention pls…
here comes the story of today’s blog!!

i passed by that petrol station
and saw a white man filling petrol over there
when he first saw me
he smiled
so i replied it with a great smile too.
then he gave me a wink….
and thats remind me of something..
u know..
something i m always capable of!
ha ha!!
okay,
continue my story…
i purposely turned back to hav a look at him before i ‘finish’ passing by that petrol station…
guess what
he was still looking at me
and he gave me another sweet smile
and wink somemore
ha ha ha ha….
*(not sure whether i should describe it as sweet or not)
at that moment
there was nothing in my mind
except doubting that what is he going to do next…
he drove his car
passed by me,
and…

the story should end here…
for those who is reading this blog
if u are interested in what did happen after that…
may be i can tell
in person to you..

to be frank…
i really don’t know why i have this kind of ‘ability’
never intended to do so…
hopefully this can happen on girl to me
one day…
hehe!
=.=

hello everyone…

"1st-7th Jan 2008"
"Permata Soaring the Eagle"
thats what i were doing
and
thats why i wasn’t online for so so many days.
really really sorry for those who missed me…
like Pei Chia
glad that at least u sent a msg to me
ha ha
make me feel so warm….
friendship in high school never ended…
hehe
anyway
lets talk a bit about the camp
The camp was nice….
some parts were the same like the "Eagle in You"
ZZzzzz Bliss..
the name thing
the egg thing…
however,
i was really surprised to see myself
manage to keep my egg in good condition for so many days
coz last time
i broke it
but still
i managed to fix that!
Hehe….cannot tell the secret behind it here!
this time the camp was mixed up with people from different semester
for foundation first sem,
i knew people like Jonny, Nora
Jonny is friendly,
and he is really nice person
Nora was my first new malay friend in class.
she was the one i interviewed.
we do share some commons in us…
and it was really glad to make friend with her,
to be frank.
then is dividing-into-group session..
i was in Mach 5,
with Amirah who is already my coursemate.
really nice to hav a chance to know her better
then i oso know some new people from second sem
like Farah…who is a pretty sweet girl
with powerful nice voice!
Go Farah!!
next would be Rahmat,
who is another super humble nice person
i like humble person…
just make me feel at least i m part of the group
Syahir n RajO…
i dun have the chance to talk much with them
coz i usually don’t open up myself to others who are still new to me
last but not least
Intan..
never thought that she is same batch with me
=.=
but she is really nice as well
there were a lot more of nice people in my class
old friends like Syaqifah,Dyla,Iqa,Peow,Adonis
(Pls….the order of the name doesn’t mean anything)
new friends like Vuthy,Atia,Ihsyrat,Salma and many more lar…
sorry yah i didn’t mention your names…
hehe
and our ‘teacher’
Ms Zurila…
i like the fact that she talks a lot
i m a good listener…
thats why i m quiet most of the time
learn about some new stuffs…
quite helpful i think…
especially the financial part
hopefully i can ‘control’ myself when i wanna spend money in v4 shop next time
ha ha ha ha….

2007……………
today is 9th jan 2008 already….
listening to the theme song of One Litre of Tears….
writing blog for the last day of 2007
so…
here is the story.
i arrived at Puduraya around 4 something
and i lied to my very best friends of utp….
that ‘I M LOST"
in the middle of no where….
Petronas,Shell…whatever petrol stations…
at last,
i didn’t manage to give the ’surprise’ i had planned to give
coz
my friend told me the wrong room number!
*****@#$#$$
but it was fun..(idiot)
=.=
at night
we all went to Bukit Bintang for countdown..
we arrived there quite late,
thats why we didn’t get a very nice spot to watch the show
so..
at last we ended up standing on something like a small tank
which was quite far from the stage
and there were these trees that blocked 20-30% of the view
actually,
i m tall enough to watch the show nearer
with full view somemore…
nevermind la.
i had fun,
that’s enough for me.
singers’ performance were great…
people played around with the white creamy foam…
to be frank
i m the kind of person who really wanna join…
playful …thats me!!
we met lots strangers..
some are the kind who stealing things around
some are just spraying foam on people passed by without reason
like the last gang that we met ..
strangers
is what i would like to call them…
but at this 31th of dec…
everyone just went crazy
even ourselves
3…
2…
1…
happy new year
and i could see white foam coming from my back
my hair was wet…
protecting the girls in front of me…
they screamed at us
we screamed back
even before we left..
they said ‘
Hold on’
then we all screamed like fools
AGAIN!!!
the celebration was fun…
and we all got back to hotel…
safely
successfully
2.30am
everyone planned to sleep
but
everyone couldn’t sleep
we talked…
talked…
until 4 something
"it’s time to sleep now"
i woke up at 6 something
Yoon Yeh laid down beside me
could not sleep
so..
we went down
walked around
and i saw the Mc D in front of us
we got back to our room again
got our wallet
then had breakfast there
KL before 7 is peaceful…
beautiful…
i just like that kind of live…
some people like crowded city
busy people walking with super fast speed
but not for me
quiet life
peaceful life
thats why i never wanted KL to be the place i have my internship
especially for ICT n BIS students
KL is just the perfect place
technology thingy
modern
whatever it is…
just not for me…